Listen,
What would you do, if you are alone in a crowd of strangers?
As usual, sit alone, mind your own business, play with your phone, reading a book?
Or if you are extrovert enough, mulakan perbualan dengan sesiapa di sebelah anda? If it goes right, continue chatting, but if it seems wrong, stop.
Or you can just, sit down and watch the people. How they function, what they wear, how they walk, how they act?
Aku tak tahu nak classify diri aku as introvert, extrovert, or even ambivert. Its not something yang kau boleh tau jawapannya from online quizzes. Because we are human. Human have the ability untuk adapt. Change according to the surroundings. Macam sesumpah jugak lah. Survival instinct.
My friends always categorize me as an extrovert.
But, I don't know. I'm not sure.
Maybe sebab diorang selalu tengok aku as the centre of a party, the mastermind of games and activities, happy, and always cipta 'the fun' itu sendiri. Plus, i always surrounded by large group of friends.
Tapi itu aku dengan diorang.
Aku ada masalah untuk duduk in a crowd of strangers. It always seems awkward. Panic attack? Tak lah sampai tahap tu. Tapi cukuplah untuk kau fidgeting non stop, mumble sorang-sorang, so nervous, and end up doing something stupid. So I just hate the idea of being in crowded place full of strangers like rumah orang kahwin, pantai, KTM station, pasar malam, perhimpunan sekolah, etc etc.
And on top of that, I hate changes. Kalau boleh, aku nak je duduk di takuk lama, tak payah tukar environment, tak payah jumpa new people in your life.
Yep, I hate that.
But despite semua perkara di atas, what amuse me the most is, I always find myself, at the end of the day, as the conversation starter.
Mostly...
Whenever I'm alone in public, I'm the type that will just sit and stare. Manusia, kenderaan, langit, apa sahaja. Konon mencari ilham, mahu korek idea mahu tulis apa.
Tapi sebenarnya, my handphone is so lame. Who on earth lah yang masih guna smartphone dengan capacity 2 Gb in 2016? Camera pun 2 mega pixel. I just use it for whatsapp, takpun scroll social media yang akhirnya buat aku frustrated because my handphone is so slow that the apps selalu hang and crashed. But that's okay. Life is good. I can live like this.
Okay, where was I?
Right. The conversation starter.
Sedang aku nervous and end up mengelamun tengok orang sekeliling, aku akhirnya akan start kan perbualan dengan orang.
Maybe I just like to talk.
Sometimes, deal yourself dengan seorang stranger is better dari nak hadap sea of strangers kat public tu. Macam distraction.
Starter pack aku usually are "Jam pukul berapa?" or maybe "Train to ****, platform no berapa?".
And it can works the other way round too. Boleh dikatakan selalu juga aku jadi target for someone to start a brand new conversation. Macam there's a stamp on my forehead yang kata, "sembanglah dengan perempuan ni".
Bila perkara ni aku bincangkan with my friends, kebanyakan diorang akan cakap, "Benda macam ni jadi kat kau je Jo". Well, maybe that's true after all. I'm kinda positive person, ya know? Sentiasa berfikir, ada sesuatu yang baik dalam setiap orang. Bukan semua orang akan acu pistol pun kalau kau sembang dengan diorang. Tapi most of my friend, akan avoid those conversation if that happen to them. They are being cautious.
Maybe I should start being cautious juga. Because the downside of being talkative to strangers, I get scammed a lot.
Biasalah.
Life is not forever flowers and rainbows.
I'll share some weird encounters that happened to me before in another post.
After all, maybe I'm just a shy extrovert.
Who knows?
If only you would listen.
Tapi sebenarnya, my handphone is so lame. Who on earth lah yang masih guna smartphone dengan capacity 2 Gb in 2016? Camera pun 2 mega pixel. I just use it for whatsapp, takpun scroll social media yang akhirnya buat aku frustrated because my handphone is so slow that the apps selalu hang and crashed. But that's okay. Life is good. I can live like this.
Okay, where was I?
Right. The conversation starter.
Sedang aku nervous and end up mengelamun tengok orang sekeliling, aku akhirnya akan start kan perbualan dengan orang.
Maybe I just like to talk.
Sometimes, deal yourself dengan seorang stranger is better dari nak hadap sea of strangers kat public tu. Macam distraction.
Starter pack aku usually are "Jam pukul berapa?" or maybe "Train to ****, platform no berapa?".
And it can works the other way round too. Boleh dikatakan selalu juga aku jadi target for someone to start a brand new conversation. Macam there's a stamp on my forehead yang kata, "sembanglah dengan perempuan ni".
Bila perkara ni aku bincangkan with my friends, kebanyakan diorang akan cakap, "Benda macam ni jadi kat kau je Jo". Well, maybe that's true after all. I'm kinda positive person, ya know? Sentiasa berfikir, ada sesuatu yang baik dalam setiap orang. Bukan semua orang akan acu pistol pun kalau kau sembang dengan diorang. Tapi most of my friend, akan avoid those conversation if that happen to them. They are being cautious.
Maybe I should start being cautious juga. Because the downside of being talkative to strangers, I get scammed a lot.
Biasalah.
Life is not forever flowers and rainbows.
I'll share some weird encounters that happened to me before in another post.
After all, maybe I'm just a shy extrovert.
Who knows?
If only you would listen.
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